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I couldn't take it anymore, so real yet so fake.

Saturday, March 7, 2009 11:03 PM

{ I don't understand the storyline of this song, but,
I think that it seems quite sad , so want to share .}

Memang khilafku..menyayangimu..
memang silapku..mencintaimu..
tapi ku tahu semua itu..tak akan kembali lagi..
Bukan ku pinta segunung janji...
tidak ku harap sinaran ini..
cuma ku ingin..
setulus kaseh..
kesetiaan kekal selamanya..
Oh..Oh shakila..
senyum mu..
enggan pergi..tawamu..mengiringi..
wajahmu ku terbayang..
hadirmu dalam mimpi..
umpama bidadari..
potrait mu ku tatapi..
mengharap kau kembali..
Memang ku rindu..
saat bersamamu..
memang tk mampu..
melupakan mu..
tapi ku tahu semua itu..
tak akan kembali lagi..
Selamat tinggal pada kenangan..
selamat tinggal pada igauan...
terima kasih..
aku ucapkan..
untuk percintaan ini..

Today went to school in the morning for chemistry remedial.
I went to school alone , couldn't find teacher in the container,
So, i stayed at cabin , called Roger to ask where's he.
After that, saw teacher , she say at 4n1, den we went up,
Remedial started, so and so .
After remedial, went to causeway point with Shujuan,Crystal & Shengmei.
Went to eat Kfc , after that headed home.
I was extremely bored as its a saturday afternoon yet im at home.
Kept on asking people out,
Around 4plus, meet haziqah in bus 911,
We planned to go sembawang new shopping centre,
After that decided to go Amk hub,
Trained there, After that went shopping,
After that headed back sembawang, went to the new shopping centre,
After that went to Sun Plaza ,
We planned to eat at Causeway point 'Gelare' ,
Den realise sunplaza also have, so , we ate there,
Cam whored too. Only when im out with gf/bytch's , i won't think of Z.

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; Guys, I've made my decision,
I told him, Lets stop contacting anymore,
Yes, of course i'm crying right now,
I'm not happy at all, i tried to control my tears, but, its over.
22days, I loved him for 22days, i hope it will end here,
No more feelings for him please.
If you think , sorry got cure, you are wrong.
All those joys, you said so much, all are lies.
Blame no one, but, me myself who choose to love you,
I've made my biggest mistake.
I guess, laughters won't come back yet,
It all take times, yet, i wasted so many time & efforts.
I won't forget those days we went library,
I won't forget those days we meet & have breakfirst ,
I won't forget those days when we sat down & talk ,
I won't forget those days you make me laugh like mad ,
Perhaps, i wish i could erase all this.
You really hurts alot.
I seems dead today, suppose to be a happy day, yet, i ruined it.
BYE THAN. 070309'11.20pm , i was the one who said goodbye,
Because, i learnt to be strong.
Married her than . i've no comments, last long uh.Bye duh.
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LOVE STORY :

There was this guy who believed very much in true love and decided to take his time to wait for his right girl to appear. He believed that there would definitely be someone special out there for him, but none came.

Every year at Christmas, his ex-girlfriend would return from Vancouver to look him up. He was aware that she still held some hope of re-kindling the past romance with him. He did not wish to mislead her in any way. So he would always get one of his girl friends to pose as his steady whenever she came back. That went on for several years and each year, the guy would get a different girl to pose as his romantic interest. So whenever the ex-girlfriend came to visit him, she would be led into believing that it was all over between her and the guy. The girl took all those rather well, often trying to casually tease him about his different girlfriends, or so, as it seemed! In fact, the girl often wept in secret whenever she saw him with another girl, but she was too proud to admit it. Still, every Christmas, she returned, hoping to re-kindle some form of romance. But each time, she returned to Vancouver feeling disappointed.

Finally she decided that she could not play that game any longer. Therefore, she confronted him and professed that after all those years, he was still the only man that she had ever loved. Although the guy knew of her feelings for him, he was still taken back and have never expected her to react that way. He always thought that she would slowly forget about him over time and come to terms that it was all over between them. Although he was touched by her undying love for him and wanted so much to accept her again, he remembered why he rejected her in the first place-she was not the one he wanted. So he hardened his heart and turned her down cruelly. Since then, three years have passed and the girl never return anymore. They never even wrote to each other. The guy went on with his life..... still searching for the one but somehow deep inside him, he missed the girl.

On the Christmas of 1995, he went to his friend's party alone. "Hey, how come all alone this year? Where are all your girlfriends? What happened to that Vancouver babe who joins you every Christmas?", asked one of his friend. He felt warm and comforted by his friend's queries about her, still he just surged on.
Then, he came upon one of his many girlfriends whom he once requested to pose as his steady. He wanted so much to ignore her ..... not that he was impolite, but because at that moment, he just didn't feel comfortable with those girlfriends anymore. It was almost like he was being judged by them. The girl saw him and shouted across the floor for him. Unable to avoid her, he went up to acknowledge her.

"Hi......how are you? Enjoying the party?" the girl asked.

"Sure.....yeah!", he replied.
She was slightly tipsy..... must be from the whiskey on her hand. She continued,
"Why...? Don't you need someone to pose as your girlfriend this year?" Then he answered, "No, there is no need for that anymore......"
Before he can continue, he was interrupted, "Oh yes! Must have found a girlfriend! You haven't been searching for one for the past years, right?" The man looked up, as if he has struck gold, his face beamed and looked directly at the drunken girl. He replied, "Yes......you are right! I haven't been looking for anyone for the past years."
With that, the man darted across the floor and out the door, leaving the lady in much bewilderment. He finally realized that he has already found his dream girl, and she was.....the Vancouver girl all along! The drunken lady has said something that awoken him.

All along he has found his girl. That was why he did not bother to look further when he realized she was not coming back. It was not any specific girl he was seeking! It was perfection that he wanted, and yes.....perfection!!
Relationship is something both parties should work on. Realizing that he had let away someone so important in his life, he decided to call her immediately. His whole mind was flooded with fear. He was afraid that she might have found someone new or no longer had the same feelings anymore..... For once, he felt the fear of losing someone.

As it was Christmas eve, the line was quite hard to get through, especially an overseas call. He tried again and again, never giving up. Finally, he got through......precisely at 1200 midnight. He confessed his love for her and the girl was moved to tears. It seemed that she never got over him! Even after so long, she was still waiting for him, never giving up.

He was so excited to meet her and to begin his new chapter of their lives. He decided to fly to Vancouver to join her. It was the happiest time of their lives! But their happy time was short-lived. Two days before he was supposed to fly to Vancouver, he received a call from her father. She had a head-on car collision with a drunken driver. She passed away after 6 hours in a coma.
The guy was devastated, as it was a complete loss. Why did fate played such cruel games with him? He cursed the heaven for taking her away from him, denying even one last look at her! How cruel he cursed! How he damned the Gods...!! How he hated himself....for taking so long to realize his mistake!! That was in 1996.

The moral of this story is :
Treasure what you have...
Time is too slow for those who wait;
Too swift for those who fear;
Too long for those who grief;
Too short for those who rejoice;
But for those who love...
Time is Eternity.

For all you out there with someone special in your heart, cherish that person, cherish every moment that you spend together that special someone, for in life, anything can happen anytime. You may painfully regret, only to realise that it is too late.

Miss those days , friend .Perhaps, friendship will end soon,
I'll remember you always, sayang.